Thursday, March 31, 2005
a bit on AI4...
well kinda sad that jessica sierra got voted out this week... i always thot she was the darkhorse to win this contest... and darkhorses are supposed to finish near the end, are they not? but anyway bottom line was - she's good, but she's out.
of course I'll still stick to my carrie and scott =)
yeah but the reason for this post is actually to let you all into a bit of AI craze in America.... check out this advert!
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got this from one of my AI4 yahoogroups... rem i am a proud member of 4 of them! haha... ok lah... nothing much to be proud of...
i showed some of my frens this, and they all agreed that this was smart business sense.
wondering how many fans actually use this though... the AI contestant with most fans equipped with this bao gia liao... ha
posted by winz at 4:54 PM
notice anything new? ;p
yeah... today i added google search bar and adverts to my template... =) more for the fun of it rather than earning money.. dun think anyone of you will be clicking the ads anyway... hehe..
today is a boring day... meeting in the morning and not particularly feeling very well since noon time... sigh... will go back to my room to koonz rite after work today... damn sian...
well there was something interesting that happened actually. an old manager retired today, and was given a japanese style sending off.. interesting... first everyone in this office gathered ard, where he gave his farewell speech and got some momentos from some ppl here. well everyone, i mean ard 100+ ppl. yeah.. tt's how big the office is. anyways, after the speech and everything, was told by my trainer that there will be a japanese traditional sending off ceremony downstairs, so we prompty joined the 100 odd ppl downstairs forming ranks at either side of the main entrance of the building, leaving an aisle leading to a hired car (i would liked to say limousine, but sadly it wasn't). yup, so when the signal was given, everyone applauded while he made his catwalk to the car... how touching... if i were him, i'll probably be sobbing to the car. everyone waved as the car drove away into the horizon...
i asked my trainer there and then if the company sponsered car only sends him to the train station nearby... 川崎駅まで? haha... (sidenote: so far all the managers i know take public transport to work) my trainer was amused, but clueless as well.. haha... until another senior manager answered my query and said he will be sent to his house. =p
anyway, yeah... and time is slowly running down... my body's crying for my bed at the moment.. well to be exact, since 2 pm.... hope i dun get down with anything!
ta-ta for now!
posted by winz at 4:34 PM
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
old jc photos with taiwanese frens =)
sent to me by one of my frens... hehe
posted by winz at 10:13 AM
Monday, March 28, 2005
wow, you wouldn't know how long i took to churn out the above few lines! gosh.... 5 months and a-counting and my japanese is still so under par... sigh... and I'm sure it's full of errors... anyways...
so as i was saying, i went snowboarding over the weekend with a couple of frens (Calvin, Tshush, Damien, Fangyi). we went to the Happou Ski Resort in Hakuba, Nagano, where the 1998 winter olympics was held.
snowboarding is quite fun actually, although i did have some serious problems standing up on my snowboard... well i believe this problem stems from the fact that i cannot do the chinese squat properly (my ankles dun allow me to do so), so i can't stand up well. took a great amount of effort to do so. initially, since it was the first time, i spent quite a long time going down the beginner's slope as i wasn't able to stand up time and time again. this really wasted my time on the snowboard - i was spending more time trying to get up rather than trying to snowboard. well by the time i got down to the foot, my frens have already got down twice (standing up is effortless for them).
well.. finally found a way to solve that problem. the only way to not have to standing up problem is --- to not fall down.. haha.... on my 3rd or 4th time down the slope, i managed to board down pretty well, with only 1 fall per trip. so i guess it's pretty easy to board, using the falling leaf method. haven't advanced to the s-curves and all yet though... hmmm... will try it the next time i go there. and from the little i tried, it's not going to be so easy...
frens may remember that after my ski trip in canada, i vowed i had enough of ski for my entire life... well but snowboard, being much easier and more fun, i'm sure i will be back for more! muahaha... hehe.... glad that i tried snowboarding =)
from left: tshush, damien, me and calvin, before one of our descents... don't ask me why i'm wearing the naruto get up, it's rental and it's randomly assigned. it stinks too, ha.
group photo with the rest of the foreigners (and some japanese)
it was snowing when we reached there. in the picture below, on the right, is our ryokan, shinya.
hakuba, happou ski resort
wasted no time going to the ski mountains... here's the sight that greeted us.
blue mountain? more like irritating blue filter from my camera... argghhh..
some pics of us...
damien, me and calvin, before starting off, still nice and fresh...
at the 龙门客栈, where they charge crazy prices for our lunch... (btw, i have my gloves and all tucked into my jacket... not that fat ok...)
with our boards after lunch...
the next day, we spent our time walking ard the vicinity, and enjoying some ofuro (hot bath).
nice welcome signboard for visitors... (me and tsu tsen)
welcome to happo, hakuba, home to the 1998 winter olympics
me and calvin in a free onsen for feet
ahhhhh... feels great! =)
posted by winz at 2:09 PM
while i'm at it...
here's more from another lovely movie....
[Aurelia jumps into the lake with hardly any clothes on to save Jamie's book]
Jamie: Oh God, she's in. And now she'll think I'm a total spaz if I don't go in too.
[takes off his sweater]
Aurelia: [in Portuguese] Fuck. It's cold.
[Jamie falls in]
Jamie: Fuck. It's freezing! Fuck!
Aurelia: [in Portuguese] This stuff better be good.
Jamie: It's not worth it you know, this isn't bloody Shakespeare.
Aurelia: [in Portuguese] I don't want to drown saving some shit my grandmother could have written.
Jamie: Just stop, stop.
Aurelia: [in Portuguese] What kind of idiot doesn't make copies?
Jamie: I really must do copies.
Jamie: You know, there'd better not be eels in here. I can't stand eels.
Aurelia: [in Portuguese] Try not to disturb the eels.
Jamie: [screams in shock because of the eels] Oh God, what the hell is that?
Jamie: It's my favorite time of day, driving you.
Aurelia: [in Portuguese] It is the saddest part of my day, leaving you.
[on sheets of poster board]
Mark: [on sheets of poster board] With any luck, by next year - I'll be going out with one of these girls.
[shows pictures of beautiful supermodels]
Mark: But for now, let me say - Without hope or agenda - Just because it's Christmas - And at Christmas you tell the truth - To me, you are perfect - And my wasted heart will love you - Until you look like this
[picture of a mummy]
Mark: Merry Christmas
Billy Mack: I left Elton John's, where there were a large number of half-naked chicks with their mouths open, to hang out with you. It's a terrible mistake, Chubs, but you turn out to be the fucking love of my life. And to be honest, despite all my complaining, we have had a wonderful life.
posted by winz at 1:03 PM
some memorable quotes from my fav movie...
Young Jenny Curran: You can sit next to me, if ya like
Jenny Curran: Were you scared in Vietnam?
Forrest Gump: Yes. Well, I-I don't know. Sometimes it would stop raining long enough for the stars to come out... and then it was nice. It was like just before the sun goes to bed down on the bayou. There was always a million sparkles on the water... like that mountain lake. It was so clear, Jenny, it looked like there were two skies one on top of the other. And then in the desert, when the sun comes up, I couldn't tell where heaven stopped and the earth began. It's so beautiful.
Jenny Curran: I wish I could've been there with you.
Forrest Gump: You were.
Jenny Curran: Why are you so good to me?
Forrest Gump: You're my girl!
Jenny Curran: [pause] I'll always be your girl.
posted by winz at 12:54 PM
Friday, March 25, 2005
not suki as in like (好き), but sukii as in ski (スキー)! =)
going off now... bye for the weekend everyone!
posted by winz at 8:37 PM
hmmm... hoping to be yellow.. but i scored a 0 for yellow haha...
Take the quiz: "What color are you?"
Your color is orange... You are very courageous, understanding and friendly.... You can sometimes be bossy and stubborn, and you love to be the leader, but you make a loyal friend as well... You are bold and adventurouse, but also wise, forgiving, and unpredictable...
All of the possible quiz results for this quiz:
Gray (You scored 0)
Black (You scored 0)
White (You scored 3)
Yellow (You scored 0)
Pink (You scored 0)
Red (You scored 0)
Orange (You scored 4)
Green (You scored 2)
Blue (You scored 1)
Purple (You scored 0)
posted by winz at 11:42 AM
devil or angel?
am i really that evil? hmmm...
Take the quiz: "Devil or Angel?"
You'd be a white devil, mostly evil, but you do have a consience, and you know when something is serious... You care about some things, but mostly just do what you wanna do.
posted by winz at 11:41 AM
what type of flirt?
err.. i'm sure it's not accurate =p
Take the quiz: "What Type of Flirt are You?"
Hey there, slick! We think it's pretty safe to say that you're a Smooth Flirt. You've got all the right moves, and you're confident that your target will appreciate all your winks and smiles. All it takes is the perfect line, right? Maybe so, as long as you deliver it with your charm meter set to stun. Your flirting style is the perfect mix of body language and pure animal magnetism. With you on their trail, how can your prey possibly hope to get away? Seduction is inevitable. Just make sure not to overdo it. There's something to be said for simple, direct conversation. Your way with words and smooth moves guarantee that you'll hit the bull
posted by winz at 11:38 AM
hmm.. sorry for those who dun appreciate poetry for posting such a long one just awhile ago... for those who of course have seen the movie or are observant enough, the Mary character kirsten dunst played quoted only these few lines in the movie, which resulted in the title:
How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd.
however found it an injustice to alexander pope if i dun share the rest of his work with all you guys.... (just hope dun run into copyright problems can liao haha...)
anyway the movie was real good i feel... ranks up there with sideways as the best few i've seen in japan so far... so much real emotions and struggles that i can identify with. main thing being memories being beautiful and painful all at the same time; you want to forget about them, yet you don't want to let go of them too... and given the chance to start all over, you will want to do it all over again... how very very true... was very very touched by this movie.
Clementine: This is it, Joel. It's going to be gone soon.
Joel: I know.
Clementine: What do we do?
Joel: Enjoy it.
Joel: [In the house on the beach] I really need to go. I should catch my ride.
Clementine: So go.
Joel: I did. I walked out the door. I was too nervous. I thought, maybe you were a nut. But you were exciting. I felt like I was a scared little kid.
Clementine: You were scared?
Joel: Yeah. I thought you knew that about me. I ran back to the bonfire, trying to outrun my humiliation.
Clementine: Was it something I said?
Joel: Yeah, you said so go. Said it with such disdain you know?
Clementine: Oh I'm sorry.
Joel: It's ok.
Clementine: I wish you had stayed.
Joel: I wish I had stayed to. I swear to god I wish I had stayed. I wish I had done a lot of things. I wish... I wish I had stayed.
Clementine: Joel? What if you stayed this time?
Joel: I walked out.
Clementine: Come back and make up a good-bye at least. Pretend we had one.
Joel: I could die right now, Clem. I'm just... happy. I've never felt that before. I'm just exactly where I want to be.
Joel: I had a really nice time last night.
Joel: I had the best fucking night of my entire fucking life, last night!
Clementine: Thaaaat's better!
posted by winz at 10:38 AM
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Eloisa to Abelard - by Alexander Pope
In these deep solitudes and awful cells,
Where heav'nly-pensive contemplation dwells,
And ever-musing melancholy reigns;
What means this tumult in a vestal's veins?
Why rove my thoughts beyond this last retreat?
Why feels my heart its long-forgotten heat?
Yet, yet I love! — From Abelard it came,
And Eloisa yet must kiss the name.
Dear fatal name! rest ever unreveal'd,
Nor pass these lips in holy silence seal'd.
Hide it, my heart, within that close disguise,
Where mix'd with God's, his lov'd idea lies:
O write it not, my hand — the name appears
Already written — wash it out, my tears!
In vain lost Eloisa weeps and prays,
Her heart still dictates, and her hand obeys.
Relentless walls! whose darksome round contains
Repentant sighs, and voluntary pains:
Ye rugged rocks! which holy knees have worn;
Ye grots and caverns shagg'd with horrid thorn!
Shrines! where their vigils pale-ey'd virgins keep,
And pitying saints, whose statues learn to weep!
Though cold like you, unmov'd, and silent grown,
I have not yet forgot myself to stone.
All is not Heav'n's while Abelard has part,
Still rebel nature holds out half my heart;
Nor pray'rs nor fasts its stubborn pulse restrain,
Nor tears, for ages, taught to flow in vain.
Soon as thy letters trembling I unclose,
That well-known name awakens all my woes.
Oh name for ever sad! for ever dear!
Still breath'd in sighs, still usher'd with a tear.
I tremble too, where'er my own I find,
Some dire misfortune follows close behind.
Line after line my gushing eyes o'erflow,
Led through a sad variety of woe:
Now warm in love, now with'ring in thy bloom,
Lost in a convent's solitary gloom!
There stern religion quench'd th' unwilling flame,
There died the best of passions, love and fame.
Yet write, oh write me all, that I may join
Griefs to thy griefs, and echo sighs to thine.
Nor foes nor fortune take this pow'r away;
And is my Abelard less kind than they?
Tears still are mine, and those I need not spare,
Love but demands what else were shed in pray'r;
No happier task these faded eyes pursue;
To read and weep is all they now can do.
Then share thy pain, allow that sad relief;
Ah, more than share it! give me all thy grief.
Heav'n first taught letters for some wretch's aid,
Some banish'd lover, or some captive maid;
They live, they speak, they breathe what love inspires,
Warm from the soul, and faithful to its fires,
The virgin's wish without her fears impart,
Excuse the blush, and pour out all the heart,
Speed the soft intercourse from soul to soul,
And waft a sigh from Indus to the Pole.
Thou know'st how guiltless first I met thy flame,
When Love approach'd me under Friendship's name;
My fancy form'd thee of angelic kind,
Some emanation of th' all-beauteous Mind.
Those smiling eyes, attemp'ring ev'ry day,
Shone sweetly lambent with celestial day.
Guiltless I gaz'd; heav'n listen'd while you sung;
And truths divine came mended from that tongue.
From lips like those what precept fail'd to move?
Too soon they taught me 'twas no sin to love.
Back through the paths of pleasing sense I ran,
Nor wish'd an Angel whom I lov'd a Man.
Dim and remote the joys of saints I see;
Nor envy them, that heav'n I lose for thee.
How oft, when press'd to marriage, have I said,
Curse on all laws but those which love has made!
Love, free as air, at sight of human ties,
Spreads his light wings, and in a moment flies,
Let wealth, let honour, wait the wedded dame,
August her deed, and sacred be her fame;
Before true passion all those views remove,
Fame, wealth, and honour! what are you to Love?
The jealous God, when we profane his fires,
Those restless passions in revenge inspires;
And bids them make mistaken mortals groan,
Who seek in love for aught but love alone.
Should at my feet the world's great master fall,
Himself, his throne, his world, I'd scorn 'em all:
Not Caesar's empress would I deign to prove;
No, make me mistress to the man I love;
If there be yet another name more free,
More fond than mistress, make me that to thee!
Oh happy state! when souls each other draw,
When love is liberty, and nature, law:
All then is full, possessing, and possess'd,
No craving void left aching in the breast:
Ev'n thought meets thought, ere from the lips it part,
And each warm wish springs mutual from the heart.
This sure is bliss (if bliss on earth there be)
And once the lot of Abelard and me.
Alas, how chang'd! what sudden horrors rise!
A naked lover bound and bleeding lies!
Where, where was Eloise? her voice, her hand,
Her poniard, had oppos'd the dire command.
Barbarian, stay! that bloody stroke restrain;
The crime was common, common be the pain.
I can no more; by shame, by rage suppress'd,
Let tears, and burning blushes speak the rest.
Canst thou forget that sad, that solemn day,
When victims at yon altar's foot we lay?
Canst thou forget what tears that moment fell,
When, warm in youth, I bade the world farewell?
As with cold lips I kiss'd the sacred veil,
The shrines all trembl'd, and the lamps grew pale:
Heav'n scarce believ'd the conquest it survey'd,
And saints with wonder heard the vows I made.
Yet then, to those dread altars as I drew,
Not on the Cross my eyes were fix'd, but you:
Not grace, or zeal, love only was my call,
And if I lose thy love, I lose my all.
Come! with thy looks, thy words, relieve my woe;
Those still at least are left thee to bestow.
Still on that breast enamour'd let me lie,
Still drink delicious poison from thy eye,
Pant on thy lip, and to thy heart be press'd;
Give all thou canst — and let me dream the rest.
Ah no! instruct me other joys to prize,
With other beauties charm my partial eyes,
Full in my view set all the bright abode,
And make my soul quit Abelard for God.
Ah, think at least thy flock deserves thy care,
Plants of thy hand, and children of thy pray'r.
From the false world in early youth they fled,
By thee to mountains, wilds, and deserts led.
You rais'd these hallow'd walls; the desert smil'd,
And Paradise was open'd in the wild.
No weeping orphan saw his father's stores
Our shrines irradiate, or emblaze the floors;
No silver saints, by dying misers giv'n,
Here brib'd the rage of ill-requited heav'n:
But such plain roofs as piety could raise,
And only vocal with the Maker's praise.
In these lone walls (their days eternal bound)
These moss-grown domes with spiry turrets crown'd,
Where awful arches make a noonday night,
And the dim windows shed a solemn light;
Thy eyes diffus'd a reconciling ray,
And gleams of glory brighten'd all the day.
But now no face divine contentment wears,
'Tis all blank sadness, or continual tears.
See how the force of others' pray'rs I try,
(O pious fraud of am'rous charity!)
But why should I on others' pray'rs depend?
Come thou, my father, brother, husband, friend!
Ah let thy handmaid, sister, daughter move,
And all those tender names in one, thy love!
The darksome pines that o'er yon rocks reclin'd
Wave high, and murmur to the hollow wind,
The wand'ring streams that shine between the hills,
The grots that echo to the tinkling rills,
The dying gales that pant upon the trees,
The lakes that quiver to the curling breeze;
No more these scenes my meditation aid,
Or lull to rest the visionary maid.
But o'er the twilight groves and dusky caves,
Long-sounding aisles, and intermingled graves,
Black Melancholy sits, and round her throws
A death-like silence, and a dread repose:
Her gloomy presence saddens all the scene,
Shades ev'ry flow'r, and darkens ev'ry green,
Deepens the murmur of the falling floods,
And breathes a browner horror on the woods.
Yet here for ever, ever must I stay;
Sad proof how well a lover can obey!
Death, only death, can break the lasting chain;
And here, ev'n then, shall my cold dust remain,
Here all its frailties, all its flames resign,
And wait till 'tis no sin to mix with thine.
Ah wretch! believ'd the spouse of God in vain,
Confess'd within the slave of love and man.
Assist me, Heav'n! but whence arose that pray'r?
Sprung it from piety, or from despair?
Ev'n here, where frozen chastity retires,
Love finds an altar for forbidden fires.
I ought to grieve, but cannot what I ought;
I mourn the lover, not lament the fault;
I view my crime, but kindle at the view,
Repent old pleasures, and solicit new;
Now turn'd to Heav'n, I weep my past offence,
Now think of thee, and curse my innocence.
Of all affliction taught a lover yet,
'Tis sure the hardest science to forget!
How shall I lose the sin, yet keep the sense,
And love th' offender, yet detest th' offence?
How the dear object from the crime remove,
Or how distinguish penitence from love?
Unequal task! a passion to resign,
For hearts so touch'd, so pierc'd, so lost as mine.
Ere such a soul regains its peaceful state,
How often must it love, how often hate!
How often hope, despair, resent, regret,
Conceal, disdain — do all things but forget.
But let Heav'n seize it, all at once 'tis fir'd;
Not touch'd, but rapt; not waken'd, but inspir'd!
Oh come! oh teach me nature to subdue,
Renounce my love, my life, myself — and you.
Fill my fond heart with God alone, for he
Alone can rival, can succeed to thee.
How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
Labour and rest, that equal periods keep;
"Obedient slumbers that can wake and weep;"
Desires compos'd, affections ever ev'n,
Tears that delight, and sighs that waft to Heav'n.
Grace shines around her with serenest beams,
And whisp'ring angels prompt her golden dreams.
For her th' unfading rose of Eden blooms,
And wings of seraphs shed divine perfumes,
For her the Spouse prepares the bridal ring,
For her white virgins hymeneals sing,
To sounds of heav'nly harps she dies away,
And melts in visions of eternal day.
Far other dreams my erring soul employ,
Far other raptures, of unholy joy:
When at the close of each sad, sorrowing day,
Fancy restores what vengeance snatch'd away,
Then conscience sleeps, and leaving nature free,
All my loose soul unbounded springs to thee.
Oh curs'd, dear horrors of all-conscious night!
How glowing guilt exalts the keen delight!
Provoking Daemons all restraint remove,
And stir within me every source of love.
I hear thee, view thee, gaze o'er all thy charms,
And round thy phantom glue my clasping arms.
I wake — no more I hear, no more I view,
The phantom flies me, as unkind as you.
I call aloud; it hears not what I say;
I stretch my empty arms; it glides away.
To dream once more I close my willing eyes;
Ye soft illusions, dear deceits, arise!
Alas, no more — methinks we wand'ring go
Through dreary wastes, and weep each other's woe,
Where round some mould'ring tower pale ivy creeps,
And low-brow'd rocks hang nodding o'er the deeps.
Sudden you mount, you beckon from the skies;
Clouds interpose, waves roar, and winds arise.
I shriek, start up, the same sad prospect find,
And wake to all the griefs I left behind.
For thee the fates, severely kind, ordain
A cool suspense from pleasure and from pain;
Thy life a long, dead calm of fix'd repose;
No pulse that riots, and no blood that glows.
Still as the sea, ere winds were taught to blow,
Or moving spirit bade the waters flow;
Soft as the slumbers of a saint forgiv'n,
And mild as opening gleams of promis'd heav'n.
Come, Abelard! for what hast thou to dread?
The torch of Venus burns not for the dead.
Nature stands check'd; Religion disapproves;
Ev'n thou art cold — yet Eloisa loves.
Ah hopeless, lasting flames! like those that burn
To light the dead, and warm th' unfruitful urn.
What scenes appear where'er I turn my view?
The dear ideas, where I fly, pursue,
Rise in the grove, before the altar rise,
Stain all my soul, and wanton in my eyes.
I waste the matin lamp in sighs for thee,
Thy image steals between my God and me,
Thy voice I seem in ev'ry hymn to hear,
With ev'ry bead I drop too soft a tear.
When from the censer clouds of fragrance roll,
And swelling organs lift the rising soul,
One thought of thee puts all the pomp to flight,
Priests, tapers, temples, swim before my sight:
In seas of flame my plunging soul is drown'd,
While altars blaze, and angels tremble round.
While prostrate here in humble grief I lie,
Kind, virtuous drops just gath'ring in my eye,
While praying, trembling, in the dust I roll,
And dawning grace is op'ning on my soul:
Come, if thou dar'st, all charming as thou art!
Oppose thyself to Heav'n; dispute my heart;
Come, with one glance of those deluding eyes
Blot out each bright idea of the skies;
Take back that grace, those sorrows, and those tears;
Take back my fruitless penitence and pray'rs;
Snatch me, just mounting, from the blest abode;
Assist the fiends, and tear me from my God!
No, fly me, fly me, far as pole from pole;
Rise Alps between us! and whole oceans roll!
Ah, come not, write not, think not once of me,
Nor share one pang of all I felt for thee.
Thy oaths I quit, thy memory resign;
Forget, renounce me, hate whate'er was mine.
Fair eyes, and tempting looks (which yet I view!)
Long lov'd, ador'd ideas, all adieu!
Oh Grace serene! oh virtue heav'nly fair!
Divine oblivion of low-thoughted care!
Fresh blooming hope, gay daughter of the sky!
And faith, our early immortality!
Enter, each mild, each amicable guest;
Receive, and wrap me in eternal rest!
See in her cell sad Eloisa spread,
Propp'd on some tomb, a neighbour of the dead.
In each low wind methinks a spirit calls,
And more than echoes talk along the walls.
Here, as I watch'd the dying lamps around,
From yonder shrine I heard a hollow sound.
"Come, sister, come!" (it said, or seem'd to say)
"Thy place is here, sad sister, come away!
Once like thyself, I trembled, wept, and pray'd,
Love's victim then, though now a sainted maid:
But all is calm in this eternal sleep;
Here grief forgets to groan, and love to weep,
Ev'n superstition loses ev'ry fear:
For God, not man, absolves our frailties here."
I come, I come! prepare your roseate bow'rs,
Celestial palms, and ever-blooming flow'rs.
Thither, where sinners may have rest, I go,
Where flames refin'd in breasts seraphic glow:
Thou, Abelard! the last sad office pay,
And smooth my passage to the realms of day;
See my lips tremble, and my eye-balls roll,
Suck my last breath, and catch my flying soul!
Ah no — in sacred vestments may'st thou stand,
The hallow'd taper trembling in thy hand,
Present the cross before my lifted eye,
Teach me at once, and learn of me to die.
Ah then, thy once-lov'd Eloisa see!
It will be then no crime to gaze on me.
See from my cheek the transient roses fly!
See the last sparkle languish in my eye!
Till ev'ry motion, pulse, and breath be o'er;
And ev'n my Abelard be lov'd no more.
O Death all-eloquent! you only prove
What dust we dote on, when 'tis man we love.
Then too, when fate shall thy fair frame destroy,
(That cause of all my guilt, and all my joy)
In trance ecstatic may thy pangs be drown'd,
Bright clouds descend, and angels watch thee round,
From op'ning skies may streaming glories shine,
And saints embrace thee with a love like mine.
May one kind grave unite each hapless name,
And graft my love immortal on thy fame!
Then, ages hence, when all my woes are o'er,
When this rebellious heart shall beat no more;
If ever chance two wand'ring lovers brings
To Paraclete's white walls and silver springs,
O'er the pale marble shall they join their heads,
And drink the falling tears each other sheds;
Then sadly say, with mutual pity mov'd,
"Oh may we never love as these have lov'd!"
From the full choir when loud Hosannas rise,
And swell the pomp of dreadful sacrifice,
Amid that scene if some relenting eye
Glance on the stone where our cold relics lie,
Devotion's self shall steal a thought from Heav'n,
One human tear shall drop and be forgiv'n.
And sure, if fate some future bard shall join
In sad similitude of griefs to mine,
Condemn'd whole years in absence to deplore,
And image charms he must behold no more;
Such if there be, who loves so long, so well;
Let him our sad, our tender story tell;
The well-sung woes will soothe my pensive ghost;
He best can paint 'em, who shall feel 'em most.
posted by winz at 10:26 AM
the psp has been launched in the US yesterday... in japan, still no news of new batches. they seriously under-produced back in dec and sold out the 800,000 sets they have available here. and they are yet to replenish any stocks... duh. that's only about 4.5% of the japanese population owning a psp... when are they going to buck up? will never catch up with nintendo like that...
anyway psp basic set here cost under 20k yen (305 SGD), and the deluxe set cost ard 26k yen (405 yen). roughly. can't exactly rem the actual price since it happened so long ago. so roughly ard the same price as the US release ones.... ppl who bought in singapore i heard got it for ard 600-700 SGD... that's crazy. anyway... still waiting for news of new stocks over here...
as for ps3, still no news over here yet, though i've read from somewhere it may either be end this year or next year. dun hope for much though... their new cell microprocessor also just been introduced 2 months or so ago... so dunno at what stage of design or testing they are at now...
posted by winz at 9:37 AM
Thursday, March 24, 2005
AI blog.. hell no.
hmmm... my blog is soon becoming an AI discussion blog.. gotta put a stop to it =D
anyway i am now a proud member of FIVE AI related yahoo groups.. haha, got an invitation to join another one =) do you know they also have an american idol experience messenger?
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okok... enough of AI for now... enough....
go carrie, go scott!!!
posted by winz at 2:17 PM
for the past few days of the week, my email has been flooded. hehe.. that's because i am in 4 american idol yahoo groups. why did i join? not so much as to get the inside scoop, but joined to be able to download some mp3s to sample =)
well, its pretty amazing how fans go about supporting their idols in america. any coverage of the idol, you will be sure they will be sharing and talking about it over yahoogroups. they will vote like 200 over times each, each week and stuff as well. no wonder AI can hit like 120 million votes in an earlier episode. well dunno much about SI, though heard of ppl also casting hundreds of votes for Sylvester sim the other time too.. but well, I'm not really interested in that.
well, 1 website that was recommended by one idol fan is here. they update pretty often, and here you can download audio as well as video clips of every of the idol's performance! they split into separate files for each idol wannabe, so you can just download those you want ;)
that's that for AI. going to watch eternal sunshine of the spotless mind tonite... hope it will be as good as sideways, and not as over-rated as ray. yes yes... the cinemas here are THAT slow...
posted by winz at 10:28 AM
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
my fav velvet teddybear =)
Everybody's looking for a something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be
Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lovers eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings
Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry
You find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings
So, impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cos who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete
Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sun rise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
At any given time or place
It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
Cos you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings
You're the place my life begins
You'll be where it ends
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings
watched AI over the weekend... though i like scott savol and carrie underwood, Ruben still is the BEST!! hehe..
posted by winz at 5:08 PM
end of a long weekend...
well it was a long weekend for me from sat till yest, mon. didnt put it up on my blog becos i was reminded of it only on fri after work... hehe.. if no one told me, i would have ended up in an empty office yest =p
it was a much needed rest for me... quite exhausted after so many weekends of no-rest. so for the whole of sat and mon, i stayed in my dorm and rested. on top of that, i am going skiing next weekend... so needed some rest! ok ok... besides the rests, i indulged in a bit of ps2 too, happy? =p but i must assure all of you that that is not the reason for not going out... hehe.
sunday, i went to tokyo dome for the first time in my entire life. i must admit the rollar coaster ride was quite good, at least till the ride ended. you know the feeling of exhilaration or nauseousness or giddyness sometimes you get after a good rollar-ride? well i had none of those after the ride (well yeah, granted i have a higher threshold for such)... so i guess it isnt a must-go. it was fun nonetheless, albeit a little expensive at 1000 yen per ride (16 SGD). i must add that in japanese, thrill rides are collectively called 絶叫マシーン [ぜっきょうマシーン], or scream machines... hehe... interesting =)
other than that, tokyo dome joined the ranks of all other jap spots i have been to. quoting simon cowell, the touristic values of it is equivalent to the performance of ryan seacrest; it looks the part, does everything right, but just disappoints. ;)
ok i have to be careful what i write in here, i have jap audience... (see my tagboard).. but hey i have to be truthful to my countrymen too right? ok lah, it's not that bad lah... at least i still think it's worth the trip...
there were some nice restaurants there, and 1 of them is a seafood themed restaurant named "Bubba Gump"... hehe.. nice... brings back fond memories of the great movie and san fransisco... i can't remember though, did we eat at Bubba Gump's in Pier 39 back then, or was it another restaurant? but anyhow, it was a surprise to see one here in Japan.
had tandoori chicken at jonathan's, a famiresu (ie. family restaurant in jap). was real good yum yum. went back with my fren to his house, and had some nice strawberries (first few time in my life, too polite to refuse).
yeah, and that's that for the weekend.
today, came across some interesting news regarding japan. first up, japanese is pushing for daylight savings... for all you know, soon i will be 2 hours ahead of singapore... if you have not heard of this before, you heard it first from me =)
the next one is somewhat amusing... haha... how about this? A Japanese youth who wanted to go to Tokyo's Haneda airport boarded a bus heading there before threatening to hijack it unless it took him to ... the airport. yeah, granted he was drunk, but still omoshirokatta nonetheless.. =D
today's 1 thing about Japan you thought you knew:
ok so you have heard that there are some pretty useless ppl in japan (read: ppl employed to do useless stuff). ok so you dun think its queer that ppl are paid to hold advertisement signboards to stand by the pavements and do nothing else... best of all, the signboards usually can stand by themselves, ie. they mostly have bases like those you stick flags into in primary school (at least for mine). so they do nothing the whole day except holding them. even better, many of them are wearing full suits doing that. how's that for advertising?
here's a pic of the ferris wheel there and roller coaster going through the centre... pretty nice design i would say... anyway notice anything different with this ferris wheel as compared to all others? let you think for a second...
ferris wheel and "thunder dolphin" roller coaster at tokyo dome
ok so for those you noticed, well done, but no prizes... this ferris wheel is the first in the world that doesn't have a center, or rather doesn't rotate ard a centre point... interesting ain't it? but for what use other than originality, i dunno....
i shall leave tokyo dome for a second, and go to Koishikawa Korakuen now... my japanese fren Yasu, his fren Haydee, and I went there first before the park closed at 5 pm....
My fren brought me here to view a proper japanese garden... so nice of him... it is here where i saw some nice plum blossoms... check out my kodakgallery photo albums for that though...
actually this garden reminds me of central park in manhattan, not so much of their beauty and stature. it's like you are surrounded by nature and greeneries, yet at the background, you can still see skyscrapers and all (see above). of course central park still nicer lah.. haha... ;)
ok next we saw a group of gals dressed up rather elaborately in the garden.
guess what they are dressing up for??
answer coming right up!
ok these are their university graduation/convocation ceremonial dress! so nice rite? so original, unlike our boring and unflattering ones... a thing to add is that for guys, its just normal suits... as usual.. boring.
ok so here are some interesting shots from a traditional japanese room...
japanese garden view from japanese view
for those who are observant, yes this is actually a miniature structure! ;)
miniature... haydee's turn to take a picture...
ok now back to tokyo dome city... we passed by this interesting strip where ppl were getting ready for some anime cosplay party...
dun you just love cosplay? check out fma's Envy, and the guy behind checking out her butt... haha...
anyways we got up the center-less ferris wheel for 800 yen...
view from the top. the white turtle shell is tokyo dome... (now esplanade dun look that bad)
photos of the roller coaster from the top...
it's coming! here it goes!!!
this roller coaster actually boasts 4G, 60 m drop, at an inclination of 76 degrees i think... something like that...
this is La Aqua, part of the Tokyo Dome City. where they have nice food, and an onsen here i think.
La Aqua - sunset
and here's Bubba Gump, as I was talking about.
Bubba (to Forrest): Anyway, like I was sayin', shrimp is the fruit of the sea. You can barbecue it, boil it, broil it, bake it, saute it. Dey's uh, shrimp-kabobs, shrimp creole, shrimp gumbo. Pan fried, deep fried, stir-fried. There's pineapple shrimp, lemon shrimp, coconut shrimp, pepper shrimp, shrimp soup, shrimp stew, shrimp salad, shrimp and potatoes, shrimp burger, shrimp sandwich. That- that's about it.
posted by winz at 2:17 PM
Friday, March 18, 2005
fun in the sun...
finally, the sun is becoming better at her job... yesterday it was comfortable enuff to be in a single T alone. today's temperature is about 11-17... so its pretty great =)
have been reading some of my frens' and other fellow singaporean blogders' blogs these past few days... looks like ppl in singapore are really having a fun time... i must clarify, not that japan is boring, it's great at all, however the company of frens is just lacking..
few reasons why singapore is more interesting...
ONE: back in singapore, i could like meet a jc fren one day, a hall mate another, etc. here, the pool size of frens is pretty limited to the 20 of us here (and maybe a few misc japs whom i have gotten to know, but highly doubt will ask them to go out with)... you get what i am saying? the "variety" is just not there*.. singapore 1-0 japan.
TWO: ok granted singapore not much places to go... common scenario:
A: "wan to go out or not? very sian..."
B: "ok lor.. go where? do what?"
A: "dunno leh.. also not much place to go... go town lor.. go there see got what to do lor.."
B: "ok lor..."
well yeah, you might think japan is much more interesting, since bigger hence got more choices to choose from.
A: "ei.. wan go out later?"
B: "got where to go?"
A: "japan soooo big.. can go shibuya, shinjuku, harajuku, tokyo dome, odaiba, ginza, yokohama, blah blah... anywhere also can..."
B: "ya, all can, but sian leh got to travel so far**. train fare also so ex... this month spend too much money liao***, i think go somewhere nearer lah..."
A: "like that ah... then go where?"
B: "kawasaki lor... go there eat liao then go back dorm bia game****..."
A: "... ok lor..."
so in the end, also go back the same place over and over again... just like in singapore... still singapore 1-0 japan (this is tied).
THREE: topics of conversation.. ok this is a tie-in of the first reason... since you can probably pick and choose who you wanna go out with in sg, you will prob end up with some one you can talk cock, sing song, and even play mahjong with. in japan, out of the 20 mates i have here, dun really have anyone with who i have common frens... so harder to talk cock (i mean we usually gossip about common frens when talking cock rite?). mahjong here not as popular... even if got tiles also not allowed to play in dorm... ok not that we care, but the sound will prob cause some neighbours to complain about us (like the cooking incident). if muffle sound, no kick. so too bad. only can sing song. which my frens are already bored of hearing me sing liao =p (in case you are wondering, karaoke here for normal weekend nights is about 480 yen/half hour/person. that translates to about 7.50 SGD/half hour/person...)
yeah final score, singapore 2-0 japan... if only those were real world cup soccer scores... lol.*****
anyways, today's 1 thing about Japan you thought you knew:
the sun over japan is not yellow or something... when kids in kindergarten here do coloring, they always paint the sun red.
* dun be mistaken, frens here are very dear to me... i love everyone of you here.. muacks.
** far as in ard 20 mins to an hour, for the locations stated. i always counter this by asking "in singapore, from your house until orchard also 30 mins + rite? so why the diff for here?" anyway, seems that a bigger country makes the distances seem greater as well... ah well.
*** some ppl often eat self-prepared sandwiches for meals here. i will ask "in singapore you also save money like that meh?" they will say singapore food is cheaper. then i will tell them in singapore less pay so less savings also. this will be brushed aside with "aiyah more pay now, so save more lor.." truth is out. is not spend too much money; just wanna scrimp... scrimpers...
**** ok lah, not all wanna go back chiong games... replace "bia game" with any of the following - rest, sleep, internet, talk to wife, save money, watch tv, watch anime... well you get the idea..
***** make no mistake, i am still enjoying my time here... well, sort of.
posted by winz at 3:37 PM
Thursday, March 17, 2005
today's 1 thing about Japan you thought you knew:
karate (空手) is not the original name of the famous sport... the original name is 唐手 or Tang-hand, or by extension, Chinese Hand (Tang being the Tang dynasty of China)... The name was changed to Karate to avoid confusion... =)
posted by winz at 2:17 PM
japan news update...
today some interesting and appalling news in japan... first, rem the skiier satoya's "interesting" events? well now her canadian boy partner has come out to refute the reports, branding them as lies by the media... 面白い...
following, 2 cases which i think is appalling... one is about a railway employee who raised the boom gate for ppl to cross the railway track when a train is approaching... result: 4 ppl ran over by train, 2 ppl died. it was described "...A safety device was in place to prevent the gate from being raised when trains approach the crossing. However, Komatsu turned off the safety lock and lifted the gate, officers said..." acts of stupidity apparantly... am amazed how easily a person can overide their safety lock to raise the gates when a train is coming... frens in japan, look out before you cross in the future...
the last for today is about a 29 year old woman allowing her little 4 year-old son to be beaten to death by her teenage boyfriend... what was her sentence? 2 years in prison, suspended for 3 years (read: no jail term)... sigh... japanese judiciary is a real joke.
posted by winz at 9:52 AM
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
the good old days...
read this in one of my ex-classmate's blog... sigh... brings back the good old days... even now, when i talk to lance who is seated beside me in office about hwachong, we all can still talk for hours!...
"... well.. was brought back to jc days again.. remembering the pull-up bars where pple like jinks, winston and yimin used to train pull-ups.. the canteen where we girls had to be rather careful of the mischievious wind as we carried our plate/bowl of food .. those paper airplanes at the top of those "pipes" in LT2 where we had most of our lectures, where we strolled in late for physics lectures some thurs after swimming for pe at chinese high.. miss our tutorial rooms too.. which went by A207, B201 etc. still remember that a few of us used to be permanent features in the right back row.. chatting with mrs sim during maths tutorials more than working.. and mrs lim bee huay with her distinctive pronunciation of "this". which other more prominant teachers were there? oh yes, who can forget mrs HoLY, discipline mistress in j1 (always had to lengthen our skirts during chem ).. and seow ling ling with her blue and green toenail polishes haha.. and physics tutor mr low, who obviously loved socratic questioning even then - everytime you asked him a question, he'd answer you with another question.. used to drive us crazy and more confused.. there were also the eating places.. like A&W at crown centre, KAP, 6th ave, beauty world.. and hwa chong hostel where we frequently went to play bridge.. hai.. jc days were good.. i think i appreciate them even more now.. it was tutorial after tutorial, especially for maths c and f maths (16 tys questions EACH tutorial!) but life was interesting..."
posted by winz at 5:09 PM
life in japan...
looks like i have a super strong competitor when it comes to reporting of all that's weird in tokyo. check it out here!
okok... to say that it is my competitor is too much praise for my blog... =p that is a good website to see the queerness of japan, while mine is just plain ol' me... reason why we have some common topics is that i guess both of us read online news ;)
hmm... was thinking maybe i should start something new in my blog... daily, things you thought you knew, but didn't about japan (though i know some will already know, for the heck of it)... so here it goes! hope this entertains some of you out there!
today's 1 thing about Japan you thought you knew:
Sushi does not originate from Japan, as most ppl will be led to believe. It originates from China...
posted by winz at 1:49 PM
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
got a terebi yesterday finally for 6000 yen (94SGD). 2nd hand sharp TV/VCR combo. too bad it's not stereo. but well 1.5 years old is quite a good deal i must add. brand new ones easily cost 25k yen and up.
the endless nights with my ps2 can finally commence*... ;)
* if you are my parents, this is just a joke, haha...
posted by winz at 10:01 AM
Monday, March 14, 2005
top japanese scandal for the past month...
the top story for the past month was japanese national skier tae satoya's sex brawl in roppongi. click here for the full story.
911 is an immensely popular club in roppongi, have been there with friends before... qn now is, why wasn't I there on feb 8th?? =p
posted by winz at 1:27 PM
band prac on sat..
sat, went for band prac under the professional conductor. he's quite nice and kind too, although sometimes he can look quite fierce...
played the armenian dances 1 and 2 (by alfred reed)... for me, they were grossly difficult. before playing armenian 1, the conductor asked for a show of hands who hadn't played the piece before. a bunch of us raised our hands. he then said to all "日本人じゃない". he explained that japanese will definitely play this piece before in their high school days, as it was very popular among high school bands, and was one of the competition pieces in the past.
well now at least i know i can't even cope with a high school piece. that's how bad i really am...
after the prac, went for another official welcome party for me... so had great food and drinks from 1730 until 0030... haha... and free too ;) great food great company, just great!
posted by winz at 10:41 AM
yesterday went for the Tokyo Kosei Wind Orchestra's Thanksgiving Party. This party marks the end of the AY for the band, and its members (and I am one of them).
we (calvin and I), arrived too early, so we went walking ard the neighbourhood (ard 東高円山駅). there's a pretty nice and spacious shrine, dunno what its name was though.
i then spotted some nice ume blossoms in a nearby park, and off we went photo taking the umes (i presume these are umes, ie. plum, since this is the season for ume bloom. initailly thought they were sakuras though hehe...).
after wasting enough time, we went back to the concert hall... it was snowing a little too, and there were CDs for 300 yen each! bought 4 since they were so cheap =)
boy, was i glad to attend this concert.. think this is easily the best perf i have heard in my entire lifetime! the sax guy esp, he can do things with his sax that i have never heard before! besides 3 sax solo pieces, there's a Bb and alto clarinet duet piece and a trumpet duo piece as well... super power... never heard a better live perf with 2 soloists blending and harmonising so well, even in running notes, before... best of all... everything is free =)
it was more of like an interaction session between the members of the band and us, the so called "wind-mates". before the concert, there was a good spread of lunch buffet... eat as much as i could =p talked to some nice japs, esp this TKWO manager, 井出さん (Mr Ide). A nice friendly fellow who speaks good english, talking about his past exp as a stage hand in TKWO in the Singapore concert in 2002. Jolly good fellow, really was quite entertained by him... he subsequently introduced us to some senior manager, some players, and the ticketing gal whom i correspond with かおりさん (Ms Kaori).
The concert hall was pretty much like a small-sized LT.
so the effect was very personal, it's as if they are playing and performing for you and you only. the pieces where light, entertaining but difficult pieces, and as i said, they performed them to near-perfection. between each piece, the sax guy will talk to us, intro each member, the pieces, and just, well, chat in japanese. too bad we can't understand... they rounded off the performance with Little Mermaid as the encore piece.. =)
after the concert, there was a tea reception too... final chance to mingle around. armed with a camera in one hand and a dictionary in the other, i set off to have some photos taken with some of my "Japanese Idols" =p
young cute gal clarinettist
went to take photo and talked to this young gal clarinettist first. she was playing the Eb clarinet. had a hard time conversing as she don't know much english. but found out that she had just joined the band recently and am now under probation (so she won't be there for the WASBE in Singapore later in May). I gave up talking to her in the end when she said 受かる and even after checking the dictionary, i know nuts what she was talking about! and bowed, said my thanks, and left.
next up, i spotted 井出さん again and took a photo with him...
one thing's for sure is that he looks as nice and bubbly as he is!
and ladies and gentlemen, here is the 神 saxophonist, 須川展也さん (Mr Nobuya Sugawa).
next i took a photo with one of the youngest member, but excellent oboist, 宮村和宏さん (Mr Kazuhiro Miyamura). He is same age as me, and he is so good... sigh.. why can't i be half as good as him?
last but certainly not least, we took a photo with 2 神 clarinettists, the principal clarinettist 関口仁さん (Mr Hitoshi Sekiguichi) and the lovely 大浦綾子さん (Ms Ayako Oura).
contrary to how they look in the photo, they are the nicest and friendliest persons we met there. Mr Hitoshi even said we can drop by his house for a visit sometime (we live quite close), although i doubt he's serious.. but well thanks for the thought. Ms Oura is a self-professed watermelon lover. She enjoys Singapore because there's watermelon available everywhere and all year round! She had a 西瓜食べ放題 (watermelon eat-all-you-can) in Singapore back in 2002! in Japan, she added, watermelons are only available in summer. Both of them gave us name cards, and asked us to write to them! aren't they sweet? =)
we left after that, with all the members forming 2 lines at the exit conveying their thanks. well i should be the one thanking them for such a great time. their next concert is in April, and you will be sure I will be there!
on our way to the train station, we spotted a little boy (ard 9 years old?) playing with a frog/toad, piling dried grass onto the poor creature...
poor little frog/toad
found it amusing, so took a pic of it =)
posted by winz at 9:29 AM